Long personal story, but I am advised not to get personal
today.
We sort of practise business differently.
We pay first, so the poor freelancer will have some cash or
equipment to work with and get themselves started.
a bit like: I pay you some money 1st, so you can get the raw
materials and if I run away, you at least still got some stuffs
that is already payment for what you have already done.
A bit like 50% downpayment.